Fading Away

Fading away

I woke up today,
pulling myself from my bed,
and pretended to care
about something.

Like the bullshit you feed me,
that everything will be okay
that I’m not really fading away.

But I woke up today
and realized that
my left hand was missing.
All there is a nub now,

but I’m not left handed,
so I didn’t care much for it
And it’s like anyone will notice.

But with each passing morning,
a toe, a foot, a shin—
They all began to disappear
and I began to worry.

But you didn’t say anything,
just saying what you always tell me,
that I’m really not fading away.

I woke up this morning
with half my face gone.
I reached for it, but couldn’t
because I had nothing left to reach with.

There was always nothing there,
nothing but your lies within me
telling me what I wanted to hear.

I w ke  p to ay,
Re liz ng w at I h d do e.
I o ly ex st d bec  se of y u
A d no  yo ‘r  g ne.